I think it’s too close to the exams to be pre-occupied with anything else. Yet, sometimes you don’t really get a say in when things fall into or out of place. Not knowing is bad, but knowing may be worse. It just gradually eats out of the little cage I created at the back of my mind. Thoughts are evil little things. They combine and split, producing so many little ideas through the permutations and combinations. Each little idea grows, joining the big ideas that have already made a small hole in the cell.
Spillover effects. I’m willing to spend time on doing things that have little to no benefit to me except as an investment. Investments fail too you know? Yes, yes, I’m aware. 3 weeks to exams and here I am doing thinking. Thinking at night, as I’ve said many many times before, is not the wisest of moves but only in the dead of the night do I get the luxury of going through and attempting to sort out and arrange my thoughts and feelings. Not everything can be made into a optimization problem. Can try though. Max U(x, y) s.t. x = ky, y > x, etc etc…Time spent on investment and probability of investment granting dividends. On a separate note, I think I should start dabbling in the SGX. Seems like fun. Or at the very least, exciting.
Lovely night. I keep all my secrets to myself. You want to know my secrets? Really? The pitch black emptiness of the interior of the can of worms you open, will you be able to survive? Or would a double rainbow spring out of the recesses of my mind? I don’t call this insecurity. It’s more of, if things fall through, there more to lose. Yet so much more to gain. I’d calculate the expected value of the gamble, but gauging the probability of success is problematic.
Help…no actually, I’ll be able to handle this. As per everything else. Take it in stride.
